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and the book:
Zondervan (February 1, 2010)
***Special thanks to Bridgette Brooks of Zondervan for sending me a review copy.***
Bestselling, award-winning author Kim Vogel Sawyer wears many hats besides â€œwriter.â€ As a wife, mother, grandmother, and active participant in her church, her life is happily full. But Kimâ€™s passion lies in writing stories of hope that encourage her readers to place their lives in Godâ€™s capable hands. An active speaking ministry assists her with her desire. Kim and her husband make their home on the beautiful plains of Kansas, the setting for many of Kimâ€™s novels.
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List Price: $9.99
Reading level: Young Adult
Paperback: 208 pages
Publisher: Zondervan (February 1, 2010)
AND NOW…THE FIRST CHAPTER:
Like wisps of smoke that upward flee,
Disappearing on the breeze,
Days dissolving one by one . . .
Time stands still for no one.
Katy Lambright stared at the neatly written lines in her journal and crinkled her brow so tightly her forehead hurt. She rubbed the knot between her eyebrows with her fingertip. What was wrong? Ah, yes. Two uses of â€œoneâ€ on the final lines. She stared harder, tapping her temple with the eraser end of her pencil. What would be a better ending?
She whispered, â€œTimeâ€™s as fleeting as the â€”â€
Just like the poem stated, her thought dissipated like a wisp of smoke. Dropping her pencil onto the journal page, she smacked the book closed and dashed to the top of the stairs. â€œWhat?â€
Dad stood at the bottom with his hand on the square newel post, looking up. â€œItâ€™s seven fifteen. Youâ€™ll miss your bus if we donâ€™t get going.â€
Katyâ€™s stomach turned a rapid somersault. Maybe she shouldnâ€™t have fixed those rich banana-pecan pancakes for breakfast. But sheâ€™d wanted Dad to have a special breakfast this morning. It was a big day for him. And for her. Mostly for her. â€œIâ€™ll be right down.â€
She grabbed her sweater from the peg behind her bedroom door. No doubt today would be like any other late-August day â€”unbearably hot â€”but the high school was air conditioned. She might get cold. So she quickly folded the made-by-Gramma sweater into a rough bundle and pushed it into the belly of the backpack waiting in the little nook at the head of the stairs.
The bold pink backpack presented a stark contrast to her simple sky blue dress. A smile tugged at the corners of her lips, while at the same time a twinge of uncertainty wiggled its way through her stomach. Sheâ€™d never used a backpack before. Annika Gehring, her best friend since forever, had helped her pack it with notebooks and pencils and a brand-new protractorâ€”all the things listed on the supply sheet from the high school in Salina. They had giggled while organizing the bag, making use of each of its many pockets.
Katy sighed. A part of her wished that Annika was coming to high school and part of her was glad to be going alone. If she made a fool of herself, no one from the Mennonite fellowship would be there to see. And as much as she loved Annika, whatever the girl saw she reported.
â€œKaty-girl!â€ Dadâ€™s voice carried from the yard through the open windows.
Would Dad ever drop that babyish nickname? If he called her Katy-girl in front of any of the high school kids, sheâ€™d die from embarrassment. â€œIâ€™m coming!â€ She yanked up the backpack and pushed her arms through the straps. The backpackâ€™s tug on her shoulders felt strange and yet exhila-rating. She ran down the stairs, the ribbons from her mesh headcovering fluttering against her neck and the backpack bouncing on her spine â€”one familiar feeling and one new feeling, all at once. The combination almost made her dizzy. She tossed the backpack onto the seat of her dadâ€™s blue pickup and climbed in beside it. As he pulled away from their dairy farm onto the dirt road that led to the highway, she rolled down the window. Dust billowed behind the tires, drifting into the cab. Katy coughed, but she hugged her backpack to her stomach and let the morning air hit her full in the face. She loved the smell of morning, before the day got so hot it melted away the fresh scent of dew.
The truck rumbled past the one-room schoolhouse where Katy had attended first through ninth grades. Given the early hour, no kids cluttered the schoolyard. But in her imagination she saw older kids pushing little kids on the swings, kids waiting for a turn on the warped teeter-totter, and Caleb Penner chasing the girls with a wiggly earthworm and making them scream. Caleb had chased her many times, waving an earthworm or a fat beetle. Heâ€™d never made her scream, though. Bugs didnâ€™t bother Katy. She only feared a few things. Like tornadoes. And people leaving and not coming back.
A sigh drifted from Dadâ€™s side of the seat. She turned to face him, noting his somber expression. Dad always looked serious. And tired. Running the dairy farm as well as a household without the help of a wife had aged him. For a moment guilt pricked at Katyâ€™s conscience. She was supposed to stay home and help her family, like all the other Old Order girls when they finished ninth grade.
But the familiar spiral of longing â€”to learn more, to see what existed outside the limited expanse of Schell-bergâ€”wound its way through her middle. Her fingernails bit into the palms of her hands as she clenched her fists. She had to go. This opportunity, granted to no one else in her little community, was too precious to squander.
â€œDad?â€ She waited until he glanced at her. â€œStop worrying.â€
His eyebrows shot up, meeting the brim of his billed cap. â€œIâ€™m not worrying.â€
â€œYes, you are. Youâ€™ve been worrying all morning. Wor-rying ever since the deacons said I could go.â€ Katy under-stood his worry.
Sheâ€™d heard the speculative whispers when the Menno-nite fellowship learned that Katy had been granted permis-sion to attend the high school in Salina: â€œWill she be Kath-leenâ€™s girl through and through?â€ But she was determined to prove the worriers wrong. She could attend public school, could be with worldly people, and still maintain her faith. Hadnâ€™t she been the only girl at the community school to face Calebâ€™s taunting bugs without flinching? She was strong.
She gave Dadâ€™s shoulder a teasing nudge with her fist. â€œIâ€™ll be all right, you know.â€
His lips twitched. â€œIâ€™m not worried about you, Katy-girl.â€
He was lying, but Katy didnâ€™t argue. She never talked back to Dad. If she got upset with him, she wrote the words in her journal to get them out of her head, and then she tore the page into tiny bits and threw the pieces away. Sheâ€™d started the practice shortly after she turned thirteen.
Before then, heâ€™d never done anything wrong. Sometimes she wondered if heâ€™d changed or she had, but it didnâ€™t mat-ter much. She didnâ€™t like feeling upset with him â€”he was all she had â€”so she tried to get rid of her anger quickly.
They reached the highway, and Dad parked the pickup on the shoulder. He turned the key, and the engine splut-tered before falling silent. Dad aimed his face out his side window, his elbow propped on the sill. Wind whistled through the open windows and birds trilled a morning song from one of the empty wheat fields that flanked the pickup. The sounds were familiarâ€”a symphony of nature sheâ€™d heard since infancyâ€”but today they carried a poi-gnancy that put a lump in Katyâ€™s throat.
Why had she experienced such a strange reaction to wind and birds? She would explore it in her journal before she went to bed this evening. Words â€”secretive whispers, melodious trillâ€”cluttered her mind. Maybe sheâ€™d write a poem about it too, if she wasnâ€™t too tired from her first day at school.
Cars crested the gentle rise in the black-topped high-way and zinged byâ€”sports cars and big SUVs, so differ-ent from the plain black or blue Mennonite pickups and sedans that filled the church lot on Sunday mornings in Schellberg. When would the big yellow bus appear? Katy had been warned it wouldnâ€™t be able to wait for her. Might it have come and gone already? Her stomach fluttered as fear took hold.
Dad suddenly whirled to face her. â€œDo you have your lunch money?â€
She patted the small zipper pocket on the front of the backpack. â€œRight here.â€ She hunched her shoulders and giggled. â€œIt feels funny not to carry a lunchbox.â€ For as far back as she could remember, Katy had carried a lunch sheâ€™d packed for herself since she didnâ€™t have a mother to do it for her.
â€œYes, but you heard the lady in the school office.â€ Dad drummed his fingers on the steering wheel. â€œShe said the kids at this school eat in the cafeteria or go out to eat.â€
Embarrassment crept over Katy as she remembered the day theyâ€™d visited the school. When the secretary told Dad about the school lunch program, heâ€™d insisted on reading the lunch menu from beginning to end before agreeing to let his daughter eat â€œschool-made food.â€
Truthfully, the menu had looked more enticing than her customary peanut butter sandwich, but Dad had acted as though he thought someone might try to poison her. Sheâ€™d filled three pages, front and back, in her journal over the incident before tearing the well-scribbled pages into min-iscule bits of litter. But â€”satisfaction welledâ€”Dad had purchased a lunch ticket after all.
The wind tossed the satin ribbons dangling from the mesh cap that covered her heavy coil of hair. They tickled her chin. She hooked the ribbons in the neck of her dress and then brushed dust from the skirt of her homemade dress. An errant thought formed. Iâ€™m glad Iâ€™ll be eating cafeteria food like a regular high school kid. It might be only way I donâ€™t stick out.
Dad cleared his throat. â€œThere she comes.â€
The school bus rolled toward them. The sun glared off the wide windshield, nearly hiding the monstrous vehicle from view. Katy threw her door open and stepped out, carrying the backpack on her hip as if it were one of her toddler cousins. She sucked in a breath of dismay when Dad met her at the hood of the pickup and reached for her hand.
â€œItâ€™s okay, Dad.â€ She smiled at him even though her stomach suddenly felt as though it might return those ba-nana-pecan pancakes at any minute. â€œI can get on okay.â€
The busâ€™s wide rubber tires crunched on the gravel as it rolled to a stop at the intersection. Giggles carried from in-side the bus when Dad walked Katy to the open door. Katy cringed, trying discreetly pull her hand free, but Dad kept hold and gave the bus driver a serious look.
â€œThis is my daughter, Katy Lambright.â€
â€œKathleen Lambright,â€ Katy corrected. Hadnâ€™t she told Dad she wanted to be Kathleen at the new school instead of the childish Katy? Dad wasnâ€™t in favor, and Katy knew why. She would let him continue to call her Katyâ€”or Katy-girl, the nickname heâ€™d given her before she was old enough to sit upâ€”but to the Outside, she was Kathleen.
Dad frowned at the interruption, but he repeated, â€œKathleen Lambright. She is attending Salina High North.â€
The driver, an older lady with soft white hair cut short and brushed back from her rosy face, looked a little bit like Gramma Ruthie around her eyes. But Gramma would never wear blue jeans or a bright yellow polka-dotted shirt. One side of the driverâ€™s mouth quirked up higher than the other when she smiled, giving her an impish look. â€œWell, come on aboard, Katy Kathleen Lambright. We have a schedule to keep.â€
Another titter swept through the bus. Dad leaned to-ward Katy, as if he planned to hug her good-bye. Katy ducked away and darted onto the bus. When she glanced back, she glimpsed the hurt in Dadâ€™s eyes, and guilt hit her hard. This day wasnâ€™t easy for him. She spun to dash back out and let him hug her after all, but the driver pulled a lever that closed the door, sealing her away from her father.
Suddenly the reality of what she was doing â€”leaving the security of her little community, her dad, and all that was familiarâ€”washed over her, and for one brief moment she wanted to claw the doors open and dive into the refuge of Dadâ€™s arms, just as she used to do when she was little and frightened by a windstorm.
â€œHave a seat, Kathleen,â€ the driver said.
Through the window, Katy watched Dad climb back into the pickup. His face looked so sad, her heart hurt. She felt a sting at the back of her nose â€”a sure sign that tears were coming. She sniffed hard.
â€œYouâ€™ve got to sit down, or we canâ€™t go.â€ Impatience colored the driverâ€™s tone. She pushed her foot against the gas pedal, and the bus engine roared in eagerness. More giggles erupted from the kids on the bus.
â€œIâ€™m sorry, maâ€™am.â€ Katy quickly scanned the seats. Most of them were already filled with kids. The passen-gers all looked her up and down, some smirking, and some staring with their mouths hanging open. She could imagine them wondering what she was doing on their bus. Sheâ€™d be the first Mennonite student to attend one of the Salina schools. She lifted her chin. Well, theyâ€™ll just have to get used to me.
Katy ignored the gawks and searched faces. She had hoped to sit with someone her own age, but none of the kids looked to be more than twelve or thirteen. Finally she spotted an open seat toward the middle on the right. She dropped into it, sliding the backpack into the empty space beside her.
The bus jolted back onto the highway with a crunch of tires on gravel. The two little girls in the seat in front of Katy turned around and stared with round, wide eyes. Katy smiled, but they didnâ€™t smile back. So she raised her eyebrows high and waggled her tongue, the face she used to get her baby cousin Trent to stop crying. The little girls made the same face back, giggled, and turned forward again.
Throughout the bus, kids talked and laughed, at ease with each other. Katy sat alone, silent and invisible. The bus bounced worse than Dadâ€™s pickup, and her stomach felt queasier with each mile covered. She swallowed and swallowed to keep the banana-pecan pancakes in place. Think about something else . . .
High school. Her heart fluttered. Public high school. A smile tugged on the corners of her lips. Classes like botany and music appreciation and literature. Literature . . .
When sheâ€™d shown Annika the list of classes selected for her sophomore year at Salina High North, Annika had shaken her head and made a face. â€œThey sound hard. Why do you want to study more anyway? Youâ€™re weird, Katy.â€
Remembering her friendâ€™s words made her nose sting again. Annika had been Katyâ€™s best friend ever since the first grade when the teacher plunked them together on a little bench at the front of the schoolroom, but despite their lengthy and close friendship, Annika didnâ€™t understand Katy.
Katy stared out the window, biting her lower lip and fighting an uncomfortable realization. Katy didnâ€™t under-stand herself. A ninth grade education seemed to satisfy everyone else in her community, so why wasnâ€™t it enough for her?
Why were questions always swirling through her brain? She could still hear her teacherâ€™s voice in her memory: â€œKaty, Katy, your many questions make me tired.â€ Why did words mean so much to her? None of her Menno-nite friends had to write their thoughts in a spiral-bound notebook to keep from exploding. Katy couldnâ€™t begin to explain why. And she knew, even without asking, that was what scared Dad the most. She shook her head, hug-ging her backpack to her thudding heart. He didnâ€™t need to be worried. She loved Dad, loved being a Mennonite girl, loved Schellberg and its wooden chapel of fellowship where she felt close to God and to her neighbors. Besides, the deacons had been very clear when they gave her permission to attend high school. If she picked up worldly habits, attending school would come to an abrupt and per-manent end.
A prayer automatically winged through her heart: God, guide me in this learning, but keep me humble. Help me remember what Dad read from Your Word last night during our prayer time: that a man profits nothing if he gains the world but loses his soul.
The bus pulled in front of the tan brick building that she and Dad had visited two weeks earlier when they enrolled her in school. On that day, the campus had been empty except for a few cars and two men in blue uniforms standing in the shade of a tall pine tree, smoking ciga-rettes. Dad had hurried her right past them. Today, how-
ever, the parking lot overflowed with vehicles in a variety of colors, makes, and models. Peopleâ€”people her age, not like the kids on the school bus â€”stood in little groups all over the grassy yard, talking and laughing.
Katy stared out the window, her mouth dry. Most of the students had backpacks, but none sporting bold colors like hers. Their backpacks were Mennonite-approved colors: dark blue, green, and lots and lots of black. Should she have selected a plain-colored backpack? Aunt Rebecca had clicked her tongue at Katyâ€™s choice, but the pink one was so pretty, so different from her plain dresses . . . Her hands started to shake.
â€œKathleen?â€ The bus driver turned backward in her seat. â€œCâ€™mon, honey, scoot on off. I got three more stops to make.â€
Katy quickly slipped her arms through the backpackâ€™s straps and scuttled off the bus. The door squealed shut behind her, and the bus pulled away with a growl and a thick cloud of strong-smelling smoke. Katy stood on the sidewalk, facing the school. She twisted a ribbon from her cap around her finger, wondering where she should go. The main building? That seemed a logical choice. She took one step forward but then froze, her skin prickling with awareness.
All across the yard, voices faded. Faces turned one-by-oneâ€”a field of faces â€”all aiming in her direction. She heard a shrill giggleâ€”her own. Her response to nervousness.
Then, as suddenly as it had begun, the pull on the other kids faded. They turned back to their own groups as if she no longer existed. With a sigh, she resumed her progress toward the main building, turning sideways to ease between groups, sometimes bumping people with her backpack, mumbling apologies and flashing shy smiles. Sheâ€™d worked her way halfway across the yard when an ear-piercing clang filled the air. The fine hairs on her arms prickled, and she stopped as suddenly as if sheâ€™d slammed into the solid brick wall of the school building.
The other kids all began moving, flinging their back-packs over one shoulder and pushing at one another. Katy got swept along with the throng, jostled and bumped like everyone else. Her racing heartbeat seemed to pound a message: This is IT! This is IT! High school!
First and foremost, I enjoyed this book. I do recommend it. Now, that said ….
I had a little trouble getting into it when it first started.Â Katy came off as a little too perfect.Â I went to school with several Mennonite girls.Â With Katy and her father as the only references to the Mennonite community ofÂ the book, I thought they were being portrayed too narrowly.Â Then, as other characters entered the book, I saw the scope I needed to ground the story in reality.
Members of the Mennonite faith do try to hold themselves separate and live frugally.Â They tend not to gather luxuries, but to use only those technologies which make their work more efficient and productive, thus Katy’s dad drives an aging pick up but has a state-of-the-art milking facility and equipment.Â Not all families live as strictly as Katy’s dad chooses to, but the book did show us that through Katy’s eyes as she visited with Caleb’s mother in her much more modern kitchen.
I loved Katy’s grandmother, and Katy’s interactions with Jewel.Â To me the best part of the book was Katy’s struggle with her own feelings.Â She questions her wants and desires and wonders how they fit in with her life.Â She uses her own pain to help her relate to someone she would have preferred to ignore.Â And she questions the value of a lifelong friendship and chooses to honor it even in the face of rejection.Â In short, Katy is a teenager with moments of sweet innocence and moments of wrenching confusion and moments of childish rebellion — which is as it should be.