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and the book:
Kregel Publications (March 8, 2010)
***Special thanks to Cat Hoort of Kregel Publications for sending me a review copy.***
Miralee Ferrell and her husband, Allen, live in a rural community in Washington State. She serves on staff at their local church as a licensed minister and is actively involved in ministry to women, as well as speaking to womenâ€™s groups. Sheâ€™s always been an avid reader and dabbled in writing, but never considered it as a serious calling until 2005 when she felt the Lord directing her to write. Since then sheâ€™s had several magazine articles published, two in book compilations, and four full-length novels released with a fifth releasing in early 2011. Miralee loves working in her flower beds, riding horseback with her daughter, and sailing with her husband.
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List Price: $13.99
Paperback: 304 pages
Publisher: Kregel Publications (March 8, 2010)
AND NOW…THE FIRST CHAPTER:
Jeena Gregory chewed on her lip as she stared at the red silk dress hanging in the closet. Would it be enough? She wiped her sweaty palms down the legs of her jeans, trying to vanquish the knot in her stomach. The same feeling sheâ€™d experienced as a ten-year-old hit her. Sheâ€™d walked into her new school and tried to ignore the snickers as some of the students eyed her worn-out sneakers and hand-me-down clothes.
She refused to let fear or insecurity take control. Fear couldnâ€™t hurt herâ€”only men could do that. And Sean loved her.
No way would she believe the rumor sheâ€™d heard from Connie, the biggest gossip in her small group of friends. Sean couldnâ€™t be seeing someone else. He was close to proposing; sheâ€™d sensed it more than once. Jeena shook her head, trying to dislodge the disquieting thoughts. Heâ€™d have a good explanation.
Her confidence level soared after applying makeup and slipping into the dress. It had cost her two daysâ€™ salary, but it was worth every cent. Hugging her in all the right places, the dark red silk accented her long black hair and green eyes. Working out at the club kept her figure where she wanted it.
Seanâ€™s car flashed past Jeenaâ€™s window and halted in front of her small condo. Jeena ran a hand over her trim hips. Sheâ€™d be thirty later this year, and her body still looked like that of a twenty-year-oldâ€”sheâ€™d maintain it if she had to work out every day.
The doorbell chimed, but this time Jeena didnâ€™t rush to answer. Sean Matthews neednâ€™t think her life revolved around his arrival, even if it did. Playing a little hard to get might work in her favor.
The bell chimed a second time, and Jeena imagined its tone changed to one of impatience. Better not overdo it. She opened the door and stepped back into the glow of the entry light to give him the full effect.
A small frown turned down the corners of Seanâ€™s mouth, giving a serious aspect to his rugged face. His tapping toe stilled, but his lowered brows didnâ€™t lift until he stepped across the threshold.
The smile Jeena expected didnâ€™t appear. Apprehension flickered through her mind. â€œSomething wrong, Sean?â€ She touched his arm.
He ran his fingers through his dark blond hair, giving a slightly rumpled look to a man who prided himself on his appearance. â€œOur reservation is in fifteen minutes. Weâ€™re going to be late.â€
He hadnâ€™t seemed to notice the gown or the accentuated curves. â€œI had a bit of a struggle zipping up this dress.â€
â€œYou might need a jacket. That looks a little skimpy for a chilly evening.â€
The small wisp of fear grew, fanned by the coolness of his impatience.
â€œSkimpy? Thatâ€™s it?â€ She stepped back, folding her arms.
He shot a quick, cool look at the dress. â€œYou look great. Is it new?â€
She pursed her lips. Something was up. â€œYes, itâ€™s new.â€ She swung toward the closet. â€œFine. Iâ€™ll get a jacket.â€ She yanked open the door and pulled a black cape off the rack. Great start to our evening.
He helped her into his silver Lexus, then slipped into his seat and turned the key. â€œYou really do look stunning.â€ Sean paused. â€œItâ€™s been a crazy day, and Iâ€™ve had a lot on my mind.â€ He gave her a soft smile before turning his attention back to the road.
They pulled out into the street and headed through the residential area toward the edge of town. Silhouetted against the skyline, tall fir trees flanked the elegant homes along the way. Kids still played in front yards, and a couple of eager homeowners mowed their yards. Jeena sighed. She missed having a yard and flowerbeds. The new townhouse sheâ€™d put a deposit on boasted a small backyard and window boxes in the front, so she could indulge her gardening hobby on her days off.
She sank deeper in the seat and released a small breath. Peaceful silence enveloped her as the quiet car snaked around the curves and the sun glinted off the nearby Columbia River. Sean loved her. Losing sight of that was foolish. Sure, heâ€™d neglected to kiss her when heâ€™d arrived, but she understood the stress generated by work. His job as a financial consultant to a large corporation in Portland often kept him distracted.
Connie was being catty and nothing more.
Jeena gave a low laugh. â€œYou had me worried. I thought aliens had taken over your body when you didnâ€™t react to this dress.â€
He pulled away from a stop sign and glanced in his mirror, then reached over and took her hand. â€œNever fear. If aliens attempt a takeover, Iâ€™ll shoot â€™em dead.â€ His quick smile flashed. â€œHungry?â€
â€œVery.â€ Sheâ€™d been foolish to listen to Connie. An hour earlier, she couldnâ€™t have eaten a thing, but now she was ravenous.
Sean had chosen a small, rather exclusive restaurant, a rarity in River City, Oregon. They could have driven an hour up I-84 to Portland, but the recent growth of tourism in the Columbia River Gorge had birthed new hot spots, popular with locals and tourists alike.
They were seated by a window that afforded a breathtaking view of the river, and Jeena could see the colorful sails of windsurfers kiting along in the evening breeze, the soft glow of the late April sunset bronzing the multi-colored sails. Candles glowed against the damask tablecloth, giving off a subtle air of luxury. Strains of low music added to the ambiance, creating a soothing background for the trickle of diners still drifting in.
Sean had requested a quiet spot in the corner, giving a sense of privacy that still allowed a good view. While he ordered, Jeena glanced around the room, wondering if any of their friends might be here tonight. No familiar faces appeared within her line of sight. Good. She wanted this evening to be theirs alone. Maybe they could sort out the nasty rumor starting to circulate and kill it before it morphed into something worse.
Sean leaned back in his seat and sighed, stretching his legs out from under the heavy brocade cloth.
â€œLong day?â€ Jeena reached across to stroke the side of his face. He didnâ€™t pull away, but he didnâ€™t wrap his long fingers around hers as sheâ€™d expected. A small alarm went off in the back of her mind.
He gave a small shake of his head, dislodging her hand. â€œNot really. It feels good to sit across the table from a beautiful woman, instead of looking at bored businessmen all day.â€
She sat back in her chair and relaxed. â€œSomething going on at work thatâ€™s bothering you?â€
â€œVery little. How about you? When does your lease start on the new townhouse?â€
â€œIn ten days, so Iâ€™m boxing everything up now. Iâ€™ve got my final interview a week from Monday with Browning and Thayer.â€
â€œItâ€™s too bad itâ€™s only a temporary job, but with your expertise in design, they canâ€™t go wrong contracting you.â€ He straightened in his chair and leaned toward her, an affectionate smile flickering across his lips.
She flashed him a grateful look. â€œThanks. I hope they feel the same. But being a private contractor has its advantages, and the project is bigâ€”it should last at least a year.â€
The waiter arrived, placing steaming plates of fragrant pasta in front of them and gathering the empty salad dishes. A few minutes passed in comfortable silence, and Jeenaâ€™s misgivings evaporated in the relaxed intimacy.
Candlelight cast a warm light across Seanâ€™s face, accentuating his masculine good looks. Jeena smiled and settled deeper into her chair. â€œSo tell me about your family. Last time we talked, you were concerned about your mom living alone, now that your dadâ€™s gone. Howâ€™s she doing?â€
â€œGreat, from what I gather when I have time to call.â€ He wound the last strand of pasta onto his fork and took a bite, then wiped his mouth with a napkin. â€œIâ€™m sorryâ€”I see a client I need to speak to. Iâ€™ll only be a minute. Do you mind?â€ He nodded across the room to a silver-haired man sitting with an elegantly dressed woman.
â€œNot at all.â€ She smiled, then watched him make his way through the tables.
Sheâ€™d first spotted him at a party a little over a year ago. Tall, mid-thirties, dressed in an Italian three-piece suit, and built like a model, he stood out in the crowd of older businessmen. An air of sophistication clung to him, enhanced by vivid blue eyes set in a deeply tanned face. A striking blonde whoâ€™d had too much to drink was hanging on his arm. He looked slightly disgusted and appeared to be searching for an escape.
Setting aside her drink, Jeena strolled across the room, knowing sheâ€™d captured his attention even before she approached.
She extended her hand and smiled when he held it longer than necessary. â€œI donâ€™t think weâ€™ve been introduced. Iâ€™m Jeena Gregory, a friend of our hostess.â€
â€œSean Matthews. This is . . . Iâ€™m sorry, whatâ€™s your name again?â€ His bored gaze turned to the blonde.
The woman released her grip on his arm and glared at Jeena. â€œAngie.â€
Sean cocked his head toward the woman. â€œRight. Sorry. This is Angie.â€
Angieâ€™s lips turned down in a pout. â€œIâ€™m getting something to drink. Iâ€™ll find someone more interesting to take me home.â€ Angie flounced across the room without looking back.
Seanâ€™s blue eyes shone with something more than amusement. â€œI didnâ€™t bring her, but sheâ€™s had too much to drink and must have forgotten. She latched onto me when I arrived. Thanks for the rescue.â€
Jeena spent the rest of the evening in his companyâ€”and many evenings after that. Within a few weeks, she knew she wanted to spend the rest of her life with this man. Intelligent, witty, generous, and advancing up the corporate ladder at a fast pace, he possessed much that she found attractive.
Sean, however, remained an enigma. While engaging and attentive, he had yet to commit to a permanent relationship. Jeena sensed his frustration at her adamant refusal to move in together. She enjoyed the party life and didnâ€™t judge others for their lifestyle choices, but she drew the line at moving in with a man before marriage. She deserved more. Besides, too many of her crowd had gone that direction, and sheâ€™d seen disaster strike more than once.
â€œJeena? Iâ€™m sorry I took so long. I hope you werenâ€™t bored.â€ Seanâ€™s deep voice woke her from the memories.
She brushed the hair from her eyes. â€œNot at all. Just remembering our first meeting.â€
â€œAh, yes. The party.â€
Jeena tried to suppress a smile but failed. â€œAnd poor Angie.â€
Sean laughed outright. â€œPoor Angie, nothing. That woman clung like a leech with no encouragement from me. You came along just in time.â€
She leaned toward him and stroked the back of his hand. â€œDid I?â€
He slowly pulled back, and the smile disappeared.
â€œWhatâ€™s wrong?â€ Her heart rate accelerated.
He cleared his throat and picked up a napkin. â€œThereâ€™s something I want to tell you.â€
Tell. Not ask. Jeena leaned back and crossed her arms. â€œYes?â€
â€œIâ€™ve been offered a new job. It means a huge increase in pay and could lead to a partnership.â€
â€œThat sounds wonderful. I didnâ€™t realize you were looking.â€
â€œI didnâ€™t mention it until I knew something would come of it. I didnâ€™t want to worry you.â€
â€œWhy would I care?â€ Her palms grew clammy, but she refused to give in to fear.
His lips set in a firm line; then he took a deep breath and plunged forward. â€œItâ€™s taking me out of the States. A large construction conglomerate wants me in the Middle East.â€
A small shiver of fear traveled up her back. â€œBut thatâ€™s dangerous. Tell me youâ€™re not going to take it.â€
â€œIâ€™ve said yes. Iâ€™ll be living in Kuwait and going across the border occasionally, and then only to areas that are deemed safe. I leave in two weeks.â€
â€œTwo weeks,â€ she whispered. â€œWhat about us?â€
He shifted in his chair and looked at his hands, then raised his eyes. â€œIâ€™m sorry, Jeena.â€
â€œWhat do you mean, youâ€™re sorry? Youâ€™re not asking me to come with you or wait? How long will you be gone?â€ She tried to keep the pain out of her voice, but her words rose in tone and volume.
An irritated look flashed across his face. The small, secluded spot heâ€™d chosen closed in around her. No longer did the flickering candles on the table give off an aura of romanceâ€”instead, they gleamed with an ominous light.
â€œIâ€™ll be gone at least a year, maybe two. You didnâ€™t want to live with me here in the States, so I didnâ€™t think youâ€™d be willing to move to Kuwait.â€ Sean leaned back in his chair, holding her gaze.
Sheâ€™d probably hold onto him if she gave in, but something inside protested. Her parentsâ€™ marriage had been lousy, no doubt about that. But her mother had saved herself for the man she married and had often urged Jeena to do the same. Besides, Grammie would be be horrified if Jeena made that decision. A deep love for both her mother and grandmother had prompted Jeena to walk the same path.
â€œBut if we were married . . .â€ She could have bitten off her tongue for letting the words slip.
Seanâ€™s lips twisted in a wry smile. â€œI have no desire to get married.â€
â€œSo all of this has been what . . . a game? You arenâ€™t in love with me? Never have been?â€
He shrugged. â€œI think a lot of you. But marriage isnâ€™t part of my plan. I thought weâ€™d have a good time. Frankly, I hung around hoping youâ€™d change your mind.â€
â€œYou knew how I felt about living together. Itâ€™s not something Iâ€™m comfortable with.â€
Sean smirked. â€œYou told me your dad was a religious Jekyll and Hyde and you had no use for God. I never expected youâ€™d stick with your decision and be such a prude.â€
His words brought the chaos in her mind to a halt. An icy calm washed over her. â€œPrude. I see. So, who is she?â€
His face flamed red, then faded to a dirty white. â€œWho?â€
She rose quickly, her chair sliding into the waiter who was walking behind her. Pride stiffened her spine and held her head high. â€œI nailed that one. Never mind. Iâ€™m sure youâ€™ll be very happy together, and my prudish life will be better off without you.â€
She slipped around the table and started to walk past him, but he reached out and grasped her wrist. â€œJeena. Donâ€™t be that way. Iâ€™ll drive you home. Iâ€™m sorry.â€
Shaking off his hand, she stepped out of his reach and lowered her voice, conscious of the curious looks from the tables nearby. â€œIâ€™ll get a taxi. Have a great life, Sean.â€
Somehow she managed to exit the restaurant without calling more attention to herself. Humiliation at making a scene while leaving the table forced her to increase her pace and not look back. The poor waiterâ€”sheâ€™d nearly bowled him over while rushing from the table. But no way could she allow Sean to see her cry. She needed to get home and face this. The tears would come later, and no telling when theyâ€™d stop.
Men. Anger bubbled inside, momentarily pushing aside the sting of tears. Her father had proven men couldnâ€™t be trustedâ€”he hadnâ€™t loved her, either. Why had she forgotten? Never again would a man suck her in with promises and lies. From now on, her career would come first. Sheâ€™d show them all. The only person in the world who mattered was her grandmother. Sheâ€™d neglected her recently, but tomorrow was a new day. Grammie would be happy to see her, and Sean was no longer important.
Whew! This novel packs a whole lot of emotional baggage and upheaval. I kept having to put it down to sort out the emotional impact — but for the very same reason I kept picking it back up. Jeena goes from rags to riches in very short time, but in the process she learns what its like to have real friends and that there are things much more precious than anything money can buy. And through it all Jeena tries to decide who she should believe in, the God her Grammie taught her about, the God her father taught her about, or no God at all.