I have come straight over from David’s! I look out for your little poem every morning & think, ” Now how can I compete with Quilly! You are so funny! Problem is ….. I have just got up & am still full of sleep! Hard to compete with you!
Going back to your picture….. full of calm & peace………… just what is needed now that I haven’t got 9 people in my house….. just six! I miss the other three though!
So that’s what the ferry looks like. 😉
Teleportation would good about now…
I’m going to get to the books you recommend, really. No really. I am.
Peace at last…
My Darling Friend, please forgive this intrusion … but knowing your compassionate Heart, I am compelled to send this to you. Please read it, and follow your Heart’s leading. I have unwavering trust in that. I Love You, Your Servant, John-Michael
Oh my darlings, you sure know how to make a girl cry. I have just come home briefly to check in, there are too many messages to answer but I appreciate each and everyone one of then so very much.
Unfortunately, I have been given a bit of a bum steer in terms of Jack being able to stay in Hospice with me. That is actually not the case, apart from a night here and there, so the woman that told me it was possible has really got a lot to answer for as I pinned all my hopes on this. Anyway, Jacks Dad came down and can stay at my place this week at least but that’s it. After that who knows and yet they are saying I need to be in Hospice for a lot longer yet.
The pain last night, defied description I have never felt such pain in my life including child birth, I was a sobbing mess, eventually they had to knock me out and I finally got some rest. Anyway they are comparing scans and trying very hard to work out what is best to do. I know I desperately need chemo, the longer I go without it, the bigger the tumour is growing and pressing further on the nerves. So now not only do I have megga pain that is not responding to treatment, I have a child not welcome at Hospice and my life is completely screwed.
I spent the night in tears and most of the day too, I don’t have think I have any left but who knows, I will let you know how tonight goes. I am a broken woman.
There is talk about Jack having to move up with David to Warragul and change schools and everything. I said NO WAY I am not giving him up when I am not ready to die and I am not giving him up twice. I will work something out. There is no way he needs to go to another school, he needs the security of his local school here and his friends and having close contact with me.
Anyway my friends, it is a lot to contemplate tonight, I will do my best and I will not be letting my son go away from me no matter what. Please keep praying and sending me your love and care, I need you all so desperately right now. I hate to have to go, but I must leave now to go back to Hospice as they need to medicate me there, it is too dangerous to be on the medication I need to be on at home.
I will be thinking of you and I will post again either tomorrow or the next day, I promise.
Love to you all, my heart is full of you love and hugs to each and every one of you. Xxxx
posted by Jen Ballantyne at 18:40 on 9/04/2008
i want to sail into the sunset on one of these
I did. Wish him a happy birthday.
Beautiful picture. Tell OC happy birthday!
Loverly – as we says ere in brittun
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